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This tumblr user named mrthirdward???? Idk something like that, is talking mad shit about u!!

Anonymous

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

Oh, lovely. That’s disappointing. I mean you could always just mention my name in tags and never say a word of it into my messages but I guess that takes some maturity and a backbone. Apparently that entire year (over a year actually) that we spent having each other’s backs and being incredibly close has just lost all relevance.

And I’d like to point out that I do NOT say the n-word like he’s described. Yes, there were times when I did but I grew up and realized that it was wrong. Plus, he used to say it with me.

lets make something very clear here, you did not have my back throughout this past year. for you to say that is complete and utter fucking bullshit. where were you when i cut myself? where were you when i needed someone? you werent there you were busy making newer friends and you didnt care about me for so long. you stopped being my best friend and it hurt me more than any other friendship. and what do you mean you didnt say it the way i meant? the fuck does that mean? you’ve said it exactly like that. and ok so you wanna accuse me of something but not deal with anything ive said bye

If I remember correctly, I was there for you a good fucking bit. When you would call me crying on FaceTime and I would talk you down or we would watch Netflix or when you would simply vent to me on iMessage? All those times? I’ve made new friends over all this time but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you. It’s true that I do. And I feel really bad that we had a falling out. Well I clearly said that I wasn’t innocent and HAVE said that word in the past but don’t anymore. You’re really gonna deny all times you said it with me right after accusing me of it? Okay…

dont even play that shit you know good and well that was waaaaay before you started distancing yourself from me as a friend. that was like over a year ago and all of a sudden starting November of 2013 you start telling me that i need to be here for myself and you quit being my friend when i needed one. that fucking hurt because i had nobody at that time i had no familial support i had no fucking happiness at all and the one person i counted on completely was gone from my life because he decided he didnt wanna be in it anymore. when was the last time since then you tried to be there for me? honestly you havent because you’re so busy focusing on yourself and why people arent dating you or whatnot i try and say that im cutting again and you end up making every little thing about yourself im so sick of your bullshit Spencer deal with the fact that there are other things to worry about than yourself all the time.

Yeah…I wanted you to be able to pick yourself up and not have have someone help you up all the time. Cause I was going off to college and I wouldn’t be able help as much. And were we not friends after November? Like until June of this year??? We just didn’t talk as much anymore but I still considered us friends. I mean I would usually text you from time to time first and ask how you’ve been this year because you hadn’t been talking to me much. The last argument we had was dumb. I regret what I said and I could have handled it better and that’s the truth. So I apologize for that. You’re acting like I don’t have my own shit to deal with too. Yeah I need to focus on myself as well, everyone does. It’s healthy. From what I’ve heard from you in the last few months it looks like you have too. I wouldn’t point a finger at my loneliness either cause I know you’ve been here before.

i stopped being your friend in February, on my birthday because when i told you that i cut myself you just didn’t reply for an hour then replied with “stop” and then sent me a fucking photo of you as a child. like, what the fuck? at that point i knew that you were no longer healthy for me so i had to put myself with other people. in all honesty this experience has helped me grow so much in learning who to trust. and you’re saying i’m acting like you don’t have shit to deal with? i know that you have fucking shit to deal with i’m just saying that you shouldn’t be using your shit as an excuse to stop being a good friend. i’m not pointing a finger at your loneliness im stating that because of it you have made things about yourself. with my loneliness i did not want to tell anyone because i feared i was being annoying because guess what? you called me overdramatic that one time i wanted to kill myself

I was trying to help in some way cause I honestly don’t think I knew what I should say? I sent you pic of me looking funny in hopes that you’d get a kick out of it? Good! I’m glad you’re growing! That’s awesome! But if you haven’t been my friend since February why did you and I talk in June like nothing had changed? When I told you how happy I was for you now when you told me how good things were going for you? I do have a right to vent about my feelings and get some feedback if I need some. It’s not healthy to bottle things up and you know it as well as I do. I’d say that right now you’re being pretty over dramatic because if you’ve grown so much why are you talking about me and not letting any of this go with me right now. I’m sincerely sorry for hurting you in any way in the past, Calvin. You know that I don’t like having bad blood with people. That’s not a healthy thing to have in your life either. So why can’t we let it dry here and now? No more shit talking, no more digging into the past for dirt on each other? Cause that’s all I want to happen right now. The slate needs to be clean. I’m not saying at all that I’m 100% innocent either. I just hope you can forgive me and maybe we could salvage this friendship. I mean it from the bottom my heart when I say that I miss how close we used to be.

I talked to you like nothing changed because that’s just how i am. I didn’t want to say anything because it hurt to even talk about anything but now that I’ve been counseled through things I’m so ok with spilling the truth tea. I know that you have a right to vent like did i not tell you that over the time we’ve known each other? i didn’t say “don’t vent” i said “don’t make this about yourself” when i’m over here telling you i got a huge issue. i’m not being over dramatic like what the hell you said that one time that i wanted to kill myself please stop recycling. i know that you don’t like having bad blood with people but our last argument just got me so heated ugh, fine no more shit talking or anything. i honestly don’t know if i can forgive you because these scars reach deep into my heart and my wrists. i missed our friendship but tbh i’ve moved on. if someone hurts me i just can’t be their friend anymore.

I won’t push you to then because being emotionally scarred isn’t easy to deal with at all. So I hope you’re doing well (judging from your snap stories I’d say you are) and that we can go back to normal some day. I won’t try to make it happen and I’ll keep my distance. But if you ever feel as if you can fully forgive and move past it all, you know I’m open to a fresh start.

This tumblr user named mrthirdward???? Idk something like that, is talking mad shit about u!!

Anonymous

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

Oh, lovely. That’s disappointing. I mean you could always just mention my name in tags and never say a word of it into my messages but I guess that takes some maturity and a backbone. Apparently that entire year (over a year actually) that we spent having each other’s backs and being incredibly close has just lost all relevance.

And I’d like to point out that I do NOT say the n-word like he’s described. Yes, there were times when I did but I grew up and realized that it was wrong. Plus, he used to say it with me.

lets make something very clear here, you did not have my back throughout this past year. for you to say that is complete and utter fucking bullshit. where were you when i cut myself? where were you when i needed someone? you werent there you were busy making newer friends and you didnt care about me for so long. you stopped being my best friend and it hurt me more than any other friendship. and what do you mean you didnt say it the way i meant? the fuck does that mean? you’ve said it exactly like that. and ok so you wanna accuse me of something but not deal with anything ive said bye

If I remember correctly, I was there for you a good fucking bit. When you would call me crying on FaceTime and I would talk you down or we would watch Netflix or when you would simply vent to me on iMessage? All those times? I’ve made new friends over all this time but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you. It’s true that I do. And I feel really bad that we had a falling out. Well I clearly said that I wasn’t innocent and HAVE said that word in the past but don’t anymore. You’re really gonna deny all times you said it with me right after accusing me of it? Okay…

dont even play that shit you know good and well that was waaaaay before you started distancing yourself from me as a friend. that was like over a year ago and all of a sudden starting November of 2013 you start telling me that i need to be here for myself and you quit being my friend when i needed one. that fucking hurt because i had nobody at that time i had no familial support i had no fucking happiness at all and the one person i counted on completely was gone from my life because he decided he didnt wanna be in it anymore. when was the last time since then you tried to be there for me? honestly you havent because you’re so busy focusing on yourself and why people arent dating you or whatnot i try and say that im cutting again and you end up making every little thing about yourself im so sick of your bullshit Spencer deal with the fact that there are other things to worry about than yourself all the time.

Yeah…I wanted you to be able to pick yourself up and not have have someone help you up all the time. Cause I was going off to college and I wouldn’t be able help as much. And were we not friends after November? Like until June of this year??? We just didn’t talk as much anymore but I still considered us friends. I mean I would usually text you from time to time first and ask how you’ve been this year because you hadn’t been talking to me much. The last argument we had was dumb. I regret what I said and I could have handled it better and that’s the truth. So I apologize for that. You’re acting like I don’t have my own shit to deal with too. Yeah I need to focus on myself as well, everyone does. It’s healthy. From what I’ve heard from you in the last few months it looks like you have too. I wouldn’t point a finger at my loneliness either cause I know you’ve been here before.

i stopped being your friend in February, on my birthday because when i told you that i cut myself you just didn’t reply for an hour then replied with “stop” and then sent me a fucking photo of you as a child. like, what the fuck? at that point i knew that you were no longer healthy for me so i had to put myself with other people. in all honesty this experience has helped me grow so much in learning who to trust. and you’re saying i’m acting like you don’t have shit to deal with? i know that you have fucking shit to deal with i’m just saying that you shouldn’t be using your shit as an excuse to stop being a good friend. i’m not pointing a finger at your loneliness im stating that because of it you have made things about yourself. with my loneliness i did not want to tell anyone because i feared i was being annoying because guess what? you called me overdramatic that one time i wanted to kill myself

I was trying to help in some way cause I honestly don’t think I knew what I should say? I sent you pic of me looking funny in hopes that you’d get a kick out of it? Good! I’m glad you’re growing! That’s awesome! But if you haven’t been my friend since February why did you and I talk in June like nothing had changed? When I told you how happy I was for you now when you told me how good things were going for you? I do have a right to vent about my feelings and get some feedback if I need some. It’s not healthy to bottle things up and you know it as well as I do. I’d say that right now you’re being pretty over dramatic because if you’ve grown so much why are you talking about me and not letting any of this go with me right now. I’m sincerely sorry for hurting you in any way in the past, Calvin. You know that I don’t like having bad blood with people. That’s not a healthy thing to have in your life either. So why can’t we let it dry here and now? No more shit talking, no more digging into the past for dirt on each other? Cause that’s all I want to happen right now. The slate needs to be clean. I’m not saying at all that I’m 100% innocent either. I just hope you can forgive me and maybe we could salvage this friendship. I mean it from the bottom my heart when I say that I miss how close we used to be.

This tumblr user named mrthirdward???? Idk something like that, is talking mad shit about u!!

Anonymous

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

Oh, lovely. That’s disappointing. I mean you could always just mention my name in tags and never say a word of it into my messages but I guess that takes some maturity and a backbone. Apparently that entire year (over a year actually) that we spent having each other’s backs and being incredibly close has just lost all relevance.

And I’d like to point out that I do NOT say the n-word like he’s described. Yes, there were times when I did but I grew up and realized that it was wrong. Plus, he used to say it with me.

lets make something very clear here, you did not have my back throughout this past year. for you to say that is complete and utter fucking bullshit. where were you when i cut myself? where were you when i needed someone? you werent there you were busy making newer friends and you didnt care about me for so long. you stopped being my best friend and it hurt me more than any other friendship. and what do you mean you didnt say it the way i meant? the fuck does that mean? you’ve said it exactly like that. and ok so you wanna accuse me of something but not deal with anything ive said bye

If I remember correctly, I was there for you a good fucking bit. When you would call me crying on FaceTime and I would talk you down or we would watch Netflix or when you would simply vent to me on iMessage? All those times? I’ve made new friends over all this time but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you. It’s true that I do. And I feel really bad that we had a falling out. Well I clearly said that I wasn’t innocent and HAVE said that word in the past but don’t anymore. You’re really gonna deny all times you said it with me right after accusing me of it? Okay…

dont even play that shit you know good and well that was waaaaay before you started distancing yourself from me as a friend. that was like over a year ago and all of a sudden starting November of 2013 you start telling me that i need to be here for myself and you quit being my friend when i needed one. that fucking hurt because i had nobody at that time i had no familial support i had no fucking happiness at all and the one person i counted on completely was gone from my life because he decided he didnt wanna be in it anymore. when was the last time since then you tried to be there for me? honestly you havent because you’re so busy focusing on yourself and why people arent dating you or whatnot i try and say that im cutting again and you end up making every little thing about yourself im so sick of your bullshit Spencer deal with the fact that there are other things to worry about than yourself all the time.

Yeah…I wanted you to be able to pick yourself up and not have have someone help you up all the time. Cause I was going off to college and I wouldn’t be able help as much. And were we not friends after November? Like until June of this year??? We just didn’t talk as much anymore but I still considered us friends. I mean I would usually text you from time to time first and ask how you’ve been this year because you hadn’t been talking to me much. The last argument we had was dumb. I regret what I said and I could have handled it better and that’s the truth. So I apologize for that. You’re acting like I don’t have my own shit to deal with too. Yeah I need to focus on myself as well, everyone does. It’s healthy. From what I’ve heard from you in the last few months it looks like you have too. I wouldn’t point a finger at my loneliness either cause I know you’ve been here before.

This tumblr user named mrthirdward???? Idk something like that, is talking mad shit about u!!

Anonymous

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

Oh, lovely. That’s disappointing. I mean you could always just mention my name in tags and never say a word of it into my messages but I guess that takes some maturity and a backbone. Apparently that entire year (over a year actually) that we spent having each other’s backs and being incredibly close has just lost all relevance.

And I’d like to point out that I do NOT say the n-word like he’s described. Yes, there were times when I did but I grew up and realized that it was wrong. Plus, he used to say it with me.

lets make something very clear here, you did not have my back throughout this past year. for you to say that is complete and utter fucking bullshit. where were you when i cut myself? where were you when i needed someone? you werent there you were busy making newer friends and you didnt care about me for so long. you stopped being my best friend and it hurt me more than any other friendship. and what do you mean you didnt say it the way i meant? the fuck does that mean? you’ve said it exactly like that. and ok so you wanna accuse me of something but not deal with anything ive said bye

If I remember correctly, I was there for you a good fucking bit. When you would call me crying on FaceTime and I would talk you down or we would watch Netflix or when you would simply vent to me on iMessage? All those times? I’ve made new friends over all this time but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you. It’s true that I do. And I feel really bad that we had a falling out. Well I clearly said that I wasn’t innocent and HAVE said that word in the past but don’t anymore. You’re really gonna deny all times you said it with me right after accusing me of it? Okay…

This tumblr user named mrthirdward???? Idk something like that, is talking mad shit about u!!

Anonymous

mrthirdward:

raidthisway:

Oh, lovely. That’s disappointing. I mean you could always just mention my name in tags and never say a word of it into my messages but I guess that takes some maturity and a backbone. Apparently that entire year (over a year actually) that we spent having each other’s backs and being incredibly close has just lost all relevance.

And I’d like to point out that I do NOT say the n-word like he’s described. Yes, there were times when I did but I grew up and realized that it was wrong. Plus, he used to say it with me.

lets make something very clear here, you did not have my back throughout this past year. for you to say that is complete and utter fucking bullshit. where were you when i cut myself? where were you when i needed someone? you werent there you were busy making newer friends and you didnt care about me for so long. you stopped being my best friend and it hurt me more than any other friendship. and what do you mean you didnt say it the way i meant? the fuck does that mean? you’ve said it exactly like that. and ok so you wanna accuse me of something but not deal with anything ive said bye

I was probably telling to please

This tumblr user named mrthirdward???? Idk something like that, is talking mad shit about u!!

Anonymous

Oh, lovely. That’s disappointing. I mean you could always just mention my name in tags and never say a word of it into my messages but I guess that takes some maturity and a backbone. Apparently that entire year (over a year actually) that we spent having each other’s backs and being incredibly close has just lost all relevance.

And I’d like to point out that I do NOT say the n-word like he’s described. Yes, there were times when I did but I grew up and realized that it was wrong. Plus, he used to say it with me.

raidthisway:

Thinkin about all the people who used to text me every day and give a shit

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